Sincerity , Perfection , Anxiety , Life is what it is. .

Life is where some people suffer the most or enjoyed the most..


For me,
my life is filled with numbness..which is not surprising.Im emotionless at times.
But deep down its a whole different story.
I hide behind my stone expressions or false laughter.

yeah i am a hypocrite.tell me who isnt? in some ways or the other. im only this way when it involves my feelings..

we salvage what we can when tragedy,probs or any other bad situations strikes.other people choose to put other people 1st to themselves..
but im no such person.i do think i have the right to safe myself 1st in any given situation..whether its my well-being or my feelings..
yes i do realise its selfish but my mechanism has been altered tht way.. thnks to my past.

Perfection?im far from it.to tell u the truth,i live life without any expectation only living it to achieve what i hace planned earlier..n i do avoid any things tht will get in the way.
I am imperfect.n i couldnt care less to even try n improve my flaws.
i only sharpen my good points. to me i have nothing to loose if 'some people' dislike me n my ways..coz i do feel tht its not worth it.

true friends r sincere to keep being ur friend even if u r imperfect.


Anxiety..yes i do have an anxiety prob. tht is why i try my best to remain emotionless.. n keep to myself.

i can only be open bout my feelings with my parents. but i do express from time to time if i dislike certain things tht people do or such..But if n ONLY if its troublesome to me.
if not i wont give a damn.

y should i care so much bout others?where were 'them' when i need them most? true friendships?true love?

im a sceptic when it comes to all those things.


But the people in my life nw r the people who can somehow penetrate through my walls n somehow can some times make me dumbfounded with the things tht they do to prove their sincerity towards me.

i thank u for tht.

i cherished u all.

to love some1 u need to earn their respect 1st then only u'll be reward with their love n trust.